My Thoughts

Red Boots

Growing up in the midwest means I enjoy all 4 seasons. Spring with it’s flowers, summer and it’s outside fun, fall has the changing colors and winter with snow and cold. Honestly, winter is not my favorite but as a kid I enjoyed the sledding, ice skating, snowmobiling, and playing king of the mountain on the snow banks.

As we know, in winter there is the extra clothing that we wear to keep warm. The coat, scarf, mittens, snow pants, extra socks, long underwear and of course the boots. One year, not by my choice mind you, I had a pair of red boots with the zipper up the front, black fur on the top and they came past my ankles. Not to be to strong in my feelings about those boots but I hated them, everything about them.

Now I can be stubborn and that stubbornness came out in full force with these boots because I would refuse to wear them. I would hide them in the house, Mom always found them. I would think of ways of hiding them on my walk to school but then I wouldn’t be able to go out for recess. So I was stuck with wearing my red boots all winter. Thankfully my feet grew enough so I only had to wear them for 1 winter.

My Dad found the whole thing with the red boots pretty funny so from then on his nickname for me was Boots.

Now as an adult I can still be pretty stubborn and often times I get that way with God. My parents bought those red boots to keep my feet warm in the winter but it was not my choice so I didn’t like it. How often God has something for me and I don’t like it because it wasn’t what I wanted. So I’m sure there are blessings that I have missed. How important it is to be aware of the gentle voice of God urging us on to do great things for Him even when we don’t want to.

My Thoughts

Big Sister

We all have events in our lives that seem to change us. Change the way we see life. One of those events happened when I was 8 years old and in the 2nd grade. My Mom was pregnant with her 3rd child, an exciting time for our family. I was looking forward to being a big sister again. When Mom went to the hospital I waited at home with my Grandma and my brother Brian.

When we finally got the news that the baby was a girl, I was so happy. But there was something wrong, I could tell by the way my Grandma was acting. They said there was something wrong with the baby.

What they discovered after testing that my Mom had German measles while pregnant and the baby had many deformities that were visible, many were not. I cannot describe the sadness in our family.

My sisters name was Beth Ellen and when I met her for the first time I fell in love and my big sister instincts kicked in and I would protect her no matter what. So if anyone said anything about the way she looked I would give them a look or say something that would stop them immediately. I figured that’s what I was there for.

My sister lived for 9 months and I will always remember her crooked smile, her beautiful blonde hair and even the way she smelled. She changed my life by knowing how to love someone unconditionally. My daughter Bethany is named after her. I look forward to meeting her again. I think I’ll recognize her by her beautiful hair and we’ll have so much to catch up on.

Being a Mom & Grandma

Grands

I’m a Grandma! There are five little people that call me Grammi. They are McKenna, Meredith, Kinley, Jude and Avery. They bring such joy to my heart that it’s hard to explain. Now I know there are some of you waving your hands saying let me tell you about my grandkids. All the google photos, refrigerator artwork, framed pictures all over the house yes indeed I have them too.

What is it about the way they say Grammi and then a big hug follows. Or the laughter and giggles, reading books as they snuggle next to you, tea parties or rides on my scooter. I love it all!

I want them to know that I love them and pray for them every day. That I see them as strong Godly people that God is going to use in this world.

Years ago I read a book that changed the way I see God seeing me. Just as I love to hear the voices of my grandchildren He too loves to hear my voice, those one on one conversations. He created my voice for His enjoyment. Just as I never grow tired of my Grands so God never tires of me.

My Thoughts

Home

Moving is not one of my favorite things to do. I have moved 19 times in my life and that means change. That means different houses, schools, friends, churches, shopping, doctors, groomers and many other changes. Living in different states like Wisconsin, Michigan, Illinois, Nebraska and Arizona sees a change in culture and weather.

When I think of each of these places I called them home. Even though all of them were very different I still called them home. Why? Well as far as I can tell home for me is not the place but the people that live in that house.

I come in the door and many times I have been greeted by someone I love. Now granted once in the door I probably start thinking of all the things I need to get done like laundry, groceries, cleaning but those things are done for the people I love. I want to make my home a welcoming place, a secure place.

Jesus had a few homes that he visited often because they were welcoming and a secure place for rest. Most of all it was the people that lived there, those He loved. I’m sure he found joy and laughter, deep conversations and most of all love.

Are our homes that safe place for our loved ones? No matter where that home is or what it looks like. Home is the people that walk in the door and say HI! I’m Home!

My Thoughts

Words

A while ago I asked my Mom to tell me some stories about her childhood.
What it was like growing up on a dairy farm? What was school like for her?
Well, the answer to the question about school rather surprised me.
This is what she told me.

When she was in the 4th grade she and her family (5 siblings) came down with scarlet fever. Their home was under quarantine for weeks. Because of this, she missed a good chunk of the 4th grade. When the quarantine was lifted they all went back to school.

At the end of the school year, when everyone is promoted to the next grade, my Mom was not. She had to repeat the 4th grade. She was embarrassed. That’s when some of the kids started calling her dumb and stupid because she had “flunked” her grade. From that point on she disliked school and only attended through the 8th grade.

My Mom is a soft-spoken, gentle woman. She’s 90 now and her memory is fading but this event in the 4th grade is still very clear in her mind and brings a tear to her eye when she talks about it. Unfortunately, she has felt “dumb” (as she puts it) all of her life.

What if someone had spoken encouragement to that little 4th-grade girl?
What a difference that would have made in her life!

Oh, those words of encouragement and affirmation are so important in our lives, young and old. To have someone on the sideline of our life encouraging us with words of loving honesty. Our words do make a difference and most of the time they are remembered for a lifetime.

“Pleasant words are a honeycomb, sweet to the soul and healing to the bones.” Proverbs 16:24

My Thoughts · Uncategorized

Remember

I enjoy remembering some favorite things of my youth like riding my “new” two wheel bike for the first time. It may have been snowing, but I had to take a drive just to feel the freedom and excitement. There was my favorite doll “Susie” or the Spirograph that I got one Christmas. And, of course, the many books I loved to read. Oh, to get lost in the world of a book!

I’m sure we can all think of a favorite activity or toy from our childhood, and hopefully they bring good memories. It’s fun to sit down with family and remember past events, and everyone has a different take on them.

I love to listen to my children, Bethany and Jared remember their childhoods. These can be a laugh till you cry event.

And now I’m making memories with my grandchildren; those precious little people that bring such joy to our lives.

Even though we can’t go back and relive those childhood days, they are forever in our memories. And I believe we should share those memories with our families. Pass down the good and the hard memories. The learning light bulb moments that may have changed our lives.

Ask the questions that get your grandparents remembering and your parents and your kids. Enjoy the past as you move into the future.

Creation

In Awe

About a year ago I had the privilege of taking a trip to Florida with my daughter Bethany and 2 dear friends. I had never been to Florida, hard to believe isn’t it! The experience was a dream.

For the first time in my life I saw the ocean. I saw the beautiful colors of the sunset glimmering off the water. With the help of my sweet friends I was able to put my feet in the ocean, to feel the sand under my feet. To sit on the beach and just take it all in. I was in awe!

I was reminded that so long ago God spoke and the water and the land came into being. What did that first sunset look like? It must have been amazing, because God saw that it was good.

Now that I’m back in Wisconsin I remember that trip and will always be thankful for the experience. I look at the sunsets where I live, the beauty that God puts out there for us to enjoy. The amazing creation of this world that we see every day is calling us to recognize the Great Creator of heaven and earth. I encourage you to stop –really stop– and take in the beauty around us like it’s the first time you’re seeing it.

Psalm 90:1,2 “Lord, you have been our dwelling place throughout all generations. Before the mountains were born or you brought forth the earth and the world, from everlasting to everlasting you are God.”

MS

Defined as…

I have MS (Multiple Sclerosis).

I have never started a conversation with that sentence since being diagnosed in 2016. In many ways I don’t want to start talking about me but lets be frank here, when a woman is sitting in and driving a motorized scooter there is obviously something going on. Some people ask what happened, some don’t say anything, while others just give me a wide berth avoiding eye contact.

To say the least MS has changed my life. But do I want MS to totally define me? Absolutely not!

I am a daughter, sister, friend, wife, mom, grandma, cousin the list could go on. The one way that I really do want to be defined as is a Child of God, a daughter of Christ. That began when as a little girl I realized my need of a Savior, Jesus Christ. I knew I wanted to go to heaven and I also knew of my sinful actions that I needed forgiveness. I asked Jesus to be my own personal Savior. He has been my friend, my refuge, my solid rock. He defines me.

Who or what defines you? Do you know? Maybe you don’t want to acknowledge that, because it’s not a good place. Seek out the Jesus of the Bible. Find our great God through the whole book and allow Him to change your life. Let Him be the one that defines you.

My Thoughts

Hope

Several years ago I attended a jewelry party at a friends home. So much jewelry to see and admire, rather overwhelming. I look, I ponder what can I afford, what outfit will that go with, do I really want that and then again can I afford that. I spot a little ring, something within my budget, on it was engraved HOPE. That was it because I needed the reminder to put my Hope in Christ.

In Psalm 42 the writer seems to be giving a pep talk to himself. He asks Why so downcast? I read this and say to myself why are you always looking down and allowing every situation to disturb you. Where is my hope? In material things, in people, in money? Things that so easily disappoint. Look up! Put your hope in God!

As I put on that ring most every day it reminds me of where my hope should be, in the redeeming power of Christ. The words of an old hymn come to mind “My hope is built on nothing less that Jesus blood and righteousness”.

Praise God for the hope that is found in Him!

Caregiving · My Thoughts

Summertime

This has been an interesting summer. Why? You may ask. Of course the virus that has our lives in a tangle of anxiety, fear, anger and many other negative feelings. My MS does not do well in the heat so whatever walking ability I have has diminished. We (my husband and I) are caring for my 90 year old mom and that is a challenge (we’ll talk more on that subject another time).

So not to be a Negative Nellie one of the best parts of the summer has been getting my Mom outside and sitting with her for an hour or so enjoying the sights and sounds of Gods creation. We don’t talk much but we enjoy each others company. Something I’m learning in these outdoor times is sitting and being still and thinking about God’s care for us. The creator of the world loves to sit with me and my mom in those quiet moments. Isn’t that amazing!! I encourage you to be outside and enjoy being in the presence of God.